Pulling the plug is never easy

At times, having a life where everything always runs smoothly and perfectly seems quite appealing. No stress, no worries, no issues, no pain, ever...seriously, who wouldn't want to live that like? When things aren't going my way and times are tough, the thought of living without any of that crap sounds amazing. However, it's the small and sometimes large bumps in life that build character and make you a stronger individual. It's the broken bones, the asshole boyfriends, the family tragedies, and all the other difficult adventures life takes us on that continually build strength in each and every one of us. Yeah, it sucks while its happening, and it may even bring back a tear or two in reflection, but in most cases the reward for the suffering is well worth it.

Why am I bringing this up you ask. Well, this past week was both a big challenge and quite an experience for me. Waking up for 5 consecutive days without the ability to get out of bed much less think or eat because my body was is in a world of hate is no fun. Not physically being able to do the things that make me smile on a daily basis (i.e. training, working, hanging out with friends) is even more frustrating. Pulling the plug on a race I was really looking forward to is even tougher. I live for experiences, both positive and negative. I feel that every experience teaches some sort of lesson and learning is part of life. This week was full of lessons on patience, listening to my body and managing stress. GOOD STUFF!!!

Seeing the doc again tomorrow to get more results back so hopefully we'll figure out what has been causing the fatigue, loss in appetite, headaches, stiff neck, etc. I am feeling much better than I have all week, so maybe my body kicked whatever got me itself! YES, I will take it easy and get back to things slowly. With the input from JZ and the docs, the decision to race in Ogden this Saturday will be made right before I have to leave on Thursday. This give me time to recharge and be confident about my physical abilities. Stay tuned :)